and i love it

so tonight is one of those nights when i realize that having a blog about my life can be a bitch.
buts its funny because the first place i think to go, when something happens that isn't too personal but personal at the same time (hope that made sense) i come here!
to write about it .. ohh the irony.
either way, again i say this with the utmost respect.
dont take anything i post too seriously ..
except for my words of advice =)

this is not only a blog for my followers to read ..
but more importantly a place for me to vent and remember the things ive done

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one of the best feelings in life (that i know of) is knowing that your doing something right and that your maturing. (i should start counting how many times i write the word "mature" or "maturing" lol im sure its a lot.) but its an amazing feeling, and only leads to amazing things.
so cheers to that.
i think i'll treat myself to something tasty tomorrow.



^ive been craving.

i feel you

with me having a blog about my life you get the chance to watch me make mistakes, figure things out, mature and grow as an individual. therefore i hope that no one will judge me because of the material i decide to post, no matter if they are positive or negative comments. if you know me, and my character or judgment has changed outside of this blog (face to face), that is a different story .. and i can understand that. however i would like to think that for the most part ive become a better person. but who's really perfect?
every once and awhile i get this feeling that i should stop blogging (or just post about general things) because i realize that im really exposing my life to the world and it can feel really vulnerable.
sometimes people ask why i dont ever have much to say .. and its really because i like to analyze people and situations and just sit back and observe. so having a blog sometimes feels like im allowing people to know what i think about inside my head, and its weird. at one point i was saying a lot .. and i look back on it now and sometimes i find myself going back and deleting certain things lol .. but then i stop because it allows me to see the growth that ive made and it feels really good.
you really dont see a lot of blogs where people just sit and write about what is really going on in their life and their everyday feelings (which to me is pretty interesting) if anything people will blog about pictures or quotes that may depict a certain feeling but never just words and words of thoughts..
and i really dont know if its a good thing or a bad thing?

so for all those bloggers, that decide to express themselves and take that risk of people judging you or not understanding you ..
i feel you ..
and its really harder than it may seem.

why i do it

im actually really glad that i decided to make my own blog. before i dont think i would have gone out of my way to recommend others to make one but now i def. will. people think you have to be like creative or post about certain things if you have a blog. but i've realized that the only reason i have a blog is so that months from now or years from now I can look back on it and see my thoughts, what i liked, who i liked, what i didnt like etc. its a great place to just show not only other people but yourself whats going on in your life. like i cant wait to look back on this when im older with a husband and children and laugh about how crazy i was or remember an old song. i think that like facebook and myspace with time a lot of people will get a blog. it takes a little more time and thought but id say in the end it will def. be worth it. so cheers to blogging